The past few days have been rough. Tomorrow I go in for treatment, and how do I feel? Im terrified. I'm scared, I feel so alone and the one thing I want and need right now is him. Its been a few days since we last spoke, that part I'm doing fine. Its the fact that treatment is tomorrow, and it scares me. I know how its going to go and how I'm going to feel, but I just want Punkie to come and save the day. Looking at our pictures today, it helps, but hurts. I love him so much, and I can not wait to be his wife. He is my rock. I know he is there for me and is thinking of me. He knows what's going on, he will call when he gets a chance. I need to trust in God, because he will take care of me. I pray for patience, I Pray for peace, and I pray for strength. I know Russell is proud of me for being so strong, and remembering that helps me get through it. I can hear his voice reminding me that everything will be okay.
Your still there for me
Wherever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us I’ll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight knowing It’s alright
I believed that you’re listening to my song
You’re with me
Cause you’re with me
You’ve been here all along
