Gahh

Okay, the past few days have been getting harder, its really setting in. Today is Russells bestfiends birthday who passed away, hes taking it really hard. I wish I was able to take care of him right now but im trying the best I can with an ocean between us, as of right now I do not want to go Air Force or reenlist... I want to take care of my husband and I want him home damn it.