man do i miss him. some days i want to stay in bed and not do a damn thing. I want to mope and feel bad for myself. I want to bury myself in the blankets and be safe and wait for him. Leaving the apartment makes me feel uneasy. I go to work but anything other then that its tough to do. I hardly hear from him, its been a week since I have heard his voice. I finally received an email from him today... i have so many "business" things to talk to him about and a million i miss you's and i love you's. This Saturday will be 2 weeks since he has left me. Only 50 more to go... I Wish we had an R & R date set because right now I have nothing to look forward to and cant make plans. I want to move, I want to be with other wives who are going through the same thing. I have my moments throughout the day that make it rough. Getting out of bed in the morning has been harder and harder. We have talked about him going Air Force after the USMC.. but honestly, IDK if I can handle this for a career and IDK how he feels. He told me he has been working until 10pm and has been super busy. I know I need to be strong back home for him but man, this is tough! More things need to be done then ever expected! Lots of things to talk to him about but it seems i need to be the decision maker. When I hear how proud he is of me, it gives me an extra boost, it helps a lot. Our last kiss, his lips were cold, I prayed God would stop time, it felt as if he did for a moment and I took it in as much as I could. I miss my punkles munkles, no one understands me the way he does. I want him home so we can START our lives together, I hope I start hearing from him soon.. Blah. Come on 2012! Im Ready for you!
---Russell, I love you more and more each day. I can not wait for you to come home, starting our life together is what we have been waiting for, we just need to wait a little bit longer. When I close my eyes I am instantly wherever you are. You're my bestfriend, my husband and my hero. I never want to know what life is like without you. Can't wait for you to come home lover bug, missing you. We're one day closer...
